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it never stopped being difficult.

[ah.

not the best news, but not surprising either.]

did you hate him?

for a while, yes. in all fairness i didn't have much else to think about for quite some time.

by now, however--i'm still angry about the manner in which things unfolded, and i can't forgive his part in it. but i don't think i hate him.

[there's a pause between replies here, as he considers.]

i'm not there yet

i want to be, and i know it's not the same, but

i looked at you and all i saw was him

i don't blame you

i never said it was easy

i know.

i guess i just

idk i wanted to say something. it's not your fault im like this

it isn't your fault either, noctis. i have no doubt you've been through a lot, and i am not going to blame you for being upset.

.....god you are just

insufferably nice

you're allowed to be upset too

i am, just

not with you.

ok. good.

so

i don't know what to do next

i don't know how to fix this

i don't either

is there anything i can do to make it easier on you?

idk probably just space is better for a while.

talking like this. there's differences but you still look and sound like him

don't use your powers? like the illusions and stuff

of course

i was planning on moving back in with regis and the others, is that alright? I can stay out of your way.

oh

yeah thats fine itll be good for you

ill ask dad if i can borrow the regalia maybe

i'm serious, noctis. if it's a problem, you only have to say so.

it's not a problem

[not one that Ardyn needs to concern himself with, at least.]

i don't expect you to live alone just because of me

if you say so. you only need to tell me if anything changes.

yeah no

that would be super shitty of me and we both know it

i'd not have held it against you

but if you're sure it's fine, i'll not question it again

it's fine

not like they can't visit ME for once

good heavens, how alarming. a surprise visit from your father, however will you stand it?

no more lounging around in my underwear i guess.

[oh heck was that a joke? this feels almost normal. what a wild sensation.]

a nightmarish imposition, i am sure.

i think i'll live.

[might have to clean the place up a bit, though.]

hey um

thanks for this, seriously

it's nothing, really. if or when you change your mind, you'll know where to find me. until then, i'll keep out of your way.

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